Fighting for my place in this world

2012-01-30T09:43:00.001+08:00

FUS RO DAH!

Okay i got into C70 NYP ~

Got to somewhere atleast :O

I'll finally learn to programme games awesome! Hahaha

Then shall work hard and get into a f*cking game company!

2012-01-29T03:21:00.001+08:00

This is one of those days, my life has ended.

2012-01-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

Hello my comrades!

Hahahah i'm playing Red Alert 3 once again :)

Got the sudden surge to play strategic games once again!

For me playing strategic games is a few simple steps

1.Scout the surrounding area

2.Build up the economic sector

3.Build up a strike force

4.No mercy for the enemy(LIVE NONE ALIVE)

Although at times, I love to give my enemies a slight opportunity to scrabble back to their hole

Of cause that is to delay the inevitable of them being crush to bits and pieces

Its just my entertainment to do so.

I bet the rest of you have your own strategy to be formidable in the eyes of your opponent

Okay jokes aside before i'm going to sound like a dictator haha

Why am i not talking about Chinese New Year? Ain't that suppose to be my tradition

Well the answer is Yes i did, but only one side of the family

cause my beloved grandpa departed before 2012 which by Chinese tradition

No celebrating it for 100 days or maybe 1 year

I'm not upset,instead i'm proud i'm still have a little of Chinese culture in me despite all the western influence

At least my mother still makes awesome Yu Sheng for the family to have a joyous moment together

The first month of January of 2012 is coming to a still stand soon.

Which means 3 more months before i'm registered into Polytechnic(26 or 30 Jan is the allocation day)

My school life as a poly student.

Hm....Yeap i'm curious what is going to happen,will i make it with a high GPA

or fall and slack like the rest of the load

Now off to my personal love life (woo best section)

I'm now in the mood of shitting

Yes real shit.I'm like a ostrich hiding my head in the ditch avoiding everything that is circulating

But today YES which is actually yesterday.

I saw her face and there Bam! Its the feeling of falling in love at first sight.

Let me state my story here of why in the first place i've change into a mood of isolating my emotions

I went to my friend's class chalet, of cause prepared to give my confession to her

With the utmost of confidence, right after work we rushed off to the chalet.

Even on the MRT my heart was beating non-stop, it feels like standing on the frontline of battle whereby you could be shot my bullets at any moment

When i reached there, a girl in grey sweater or jacket was chatting with her friends.

Well obviously that's the girl i love

We practically ignore one another as i walked into the foyer of the chalet(typical)

She looked absolutely beautiful like someone who have attained a higher standard

I look at myself and felt disappointed that i've not change from my regular to look special on this occasion

No matter i was still ready to confess my feelings for her,still hesitant but when a opportunity is shown,i'll go for the kill.

After awhile of chatting session,she went in for about a hour or less.

Came out with a couple of her other friends(including the one i used to have a crush on)

There were all packed up and ready to head home,but of cause would like to have a game with the teacher Mr Zhou first.

This was an opportunity when she head out of the door alone at first,I walked up to her and asked

"J******, may I talk to you for awhile,it won't take long."

she replied with a strong "NO"

oh of cause i was still in full of will to do it,so i stood there continue to look at her

She then showed a hand signalling to me to wait.

Well i didn't take that message very well, so well she's busy looking into the chalet,i walked off to join with my buddies(Luckily i've brothers and sisters looking out for me in there)

She then turn and walked out with a couple of friends who were going to playing bowling with their teachers before their departure.

It was a very clear sign she had no interest in wanting to know what i wanted to tell her

I mean it was even clearer she does not treat me as a friend to hear me out(even if it was a confession)

At that moment i felt that all hope was lost, she is leaving for good, chance is gone for good.

At that moment , someone told me she wasn't going to leave tonight instead staying overnight at the chalet.

Oh dear... I was now having second thoughts on whether i should go work or to stay and at least make sure she's safe.

Of cause it was a wasted effort(everything was a wasted effort)

i was then encourage to take leave from my work to stay in the chalet for 1 night

And that was my biggest mistake(sort of cause i kind of lose a friend?)

She returned with a one of her gf

my buddies all head out to buy their drinks, well i did the foolish in love thing to stay back and watch her

when i say watch her your probably thinking i'm stalking?No.. I was like a retard looking around.

when she returned she went in and then the whole lot of their classmates came out, wielding cups,alcohol, bottles of soft drinks and ice packs.

Oh no. They are going to drink and what make matters worst, she's drinking with them.

For the boy's your normally will feel a certain spite when the girl you like does this with other boys

even though they have entirely no relations towards you.

There i looked as she drank a few shots of alcohol.

Then she started talking crazy stuff.

It was clear to me that she was in a state of drunk already,so i've decided to observe her closely.

Of cause i've skills in doing so, not like so lame old fashion peeping tom.

When they drank finish she was in a complete stage of drunk! All the crazy words start blurting out of her mouth.It still look sweet ^^(fish u Ryan)

Fast-Forward! She wanted to take a walk , her friend accompanied her with a guy who she trust,then another who she still distrust, yup you got it, i'm the third party have absolute no role to play in her life.

I just did the same accompanying her, the person she trust, i was a friend to him, whom i trust in him as well.

So i wasn't really lonely despite being the third party, i tried to make the group of us seem like a typical normal stroll in the park.With her wobbly legs as she hasn't recover from the effects

Over-rated concern i watched her every movement(another waste of effort i'll say)

We ended up returning to the chalet and she was immediately helped up by all her female friends, who later chased the boys out.

I too, but i decided to sit by the entrance as i was worried to know whether she had recover or not.

It amused me to see her like that,like another sight of her i've never known(a better side)

We all played WII to entertain her , still in the state of drunk.

Then she got tired and laid down to rest, only minutes later,woke up having a heavy headache

Walked out of the chalet and sat on the BBQ stone bench looking down

I sat at the other side, continued to look at her, wondering what's running through her mind right now.

Her trusted friend who belongs to one of her clique went up to her front and asked her if she's feeling alright.

I wanted to do that,but i know what i'm to her a typical pain in the ass.

so i stayed and just continued to observe(You can say i'm a coward at this point , i agree.)

Here comes the climax which struck me into oblivion that till this day I've created a iron wall towards selfish people.

She wanted to take a walk , my buddies all advise me to accompany the girls

Its in the night...What do ya expect?

So i did, i went up following their back, like a boss~

Then everything went backfire.

She looked at me with those stern eyes like i'm a enemy she wished i'm cease to exist.

I've dishonored myself that day.Looking down and returning to my bud's side.

Saying i've failed.

a void was created in my heart.Like an empty space, with no feelings able to enter in or out.

Its a feeling worst then crying or sadness.Its like you aren't human.

I then took a walk alone.(completely unaware of the dangers lurking in the dark hours of the park)

spotted a bench with couples sitting at the other side,i sat alone.

Looking out into the sea, up on the stars.

Asking myself,darn my day is ruin.

I've not forgotten every detail that happen on that day, this is brief statement.

If you know who you are.

Don't worry i'm not a person who views history as a regret but i view history as an experience

To make myself stronger.

You live your life and i live my life.

Those who have read all of this,I really appreciate the thought. Thank you :)

2012-01-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

Yo blog viewers wassup?

Its 2012 aren't you guys going to set your resolutions?

Yeah? hahaha! Well i haven't had my but i ain't going to say i going to get a girl by end of the year again!

Cause you know why? That's not a challenge anymore!

Okay i'm just kidding! But do remember to set yourself some resolutions to change in the year 2012!

Oh i've gone into a liking for dubstep songs! It just grooves 10x more!

2011-12-01T23:09:00.001+08:00

Today i attended my first day of work!

Work , first time i've been in something which is quite relaxed

All i've to do is just have more brawns than brain.

Okay that sound like i'm turning into a muscular brainless hunk

anyway i failed my family of friends once again SECOND time.

''i thought it was two boys, i didn't expect a girl and a boy''

there my sister was rejected eventually, sucks to be in her position.

She went home directly without saying a thing to me.

When i text her, she said it wasn't my fault but she still feels sad about it.

Honestly in my opinion i still find the reason she is sad is due to me indirectly or directly.

From Yishun to Jurong East in a MRT packed with a bunch of people going to work

Days before, telling her this is a confirmed job.

Wasting time in the place for an interview with the boss.

Me having no power to do anything in that current situation.

No matter how much i look at this matter everything turns back to me.

I just feel so apologetic towards her.

I have failed to get her a job , yet failed again to be her brother.

FML? Its not enough FMM.

Not everything is regretful today.

last post, i asked myself is it over?

Now i ask myself again, through thorough reflection on it

that the only foolish mistake i would have done was not to tell her my true feelings towards her

Then all the effort would go to waste, thrown away in the dustbin.

There is now no known advice that could help me achieve the steps to legible confession.

I do know one thing thod,it's the hardest obstacle that i've to overcome to gain my first step/impression

towards her.

It is to remove my the word "LAZY" from my vocabulary.

From there then things can get going smoothly.

I prefer not to speak to those who do not deserve my words.

For it is them who will miss out the free knowledge expressed only in words.

When a float is thrown, only those who grabbed on to it will be saved - Ryan

2011-11-27T23:36:00.001+08:00

Maybe its over? My heart has once again falter and gone dark.

You know , i don't even know what i'm doing.

Confidence is not the issue here if that's what your thinking

Its just that i don't exert the kind of aura that certain boys do.

Girls just ain't going for nerds like us but for those that i just mentioned.

Well that is normal! That is life!

Hey but let me tell you what don't be upset with what i have just said!

It just mean its time to change if you the girl of your dreams.

If you put human's chemistry with how animals mate its roughly the same

animals do certain actions to make themselves more attractive or prove to its partner it is the prideful one!

in terms of human, we tend to always style our hair or groom ourselves till we look like a star

Or we even showcase our bravely to girls.

So i'm just saying, adapt how animals chase their mates! Who knows it might work?

But do know animals still abide by its own tradition

basically i'm saying don't change yourself to someone you yourself don't even recognize

Nerds of the world heed my words!

Don't be down cause you ain't got a companion right now

Instead you should be happy that you still have the decision to pick the right one for your life!

Oh one more tip! Start getting inspiration from the latest fashion these day if you don't want to lose out.

Its better being human than an alien!

Today at Expo It fair(last day)

I got my DSLR finally EOS 600D canon!

It's not the latest version but its a starting for me! Beginner's camera!

the last day at Expo is definitely the day that you should visit

but make sure its in the morning or else you'll be facing crowds of people desperately finding what they want

despite the mass of people, the free gifts they have for the product is unimaginable!

When i bought my camera , which come in a box of the size of a dry box

the plastic bag use to carry it was 10x the size, cause its filled with goodies that comes with the camera!

There is even a 40inch LED smart TV selling at $1099

which includes freebies of Sony DVD player, $50 gift voucher , HDMI cable and lastly free wall installation(optional)

A whole crowd was surrounding the promoter and in seconds , all 4 sets were sold

Now that is what i call blitz selling!

Afterwards went to the John Little fair, didn't buy anything

But one brand "PUNKSTAR"

It was great , they got a range of designs and yet somehow i feel their shirts are what youngster should wear these days!

Especially the Hood T-shirt! Aw dang i really wanted it, but its $22

nice things come with a price i guess :(

Another was a cap that looks like a jungle cap?

It was nice, but it does not fit a big headed person like me

Then right beside the JL fair was a Car exhibition!

There was various brand ranging from TOYOTA to BMW

And guess what there was a water bottle

with a Mercedes/BMW label on it! It was awesome so i told my brother to take it!

I'll upload the picture of it when i get my hands on his phone!

That is all of the Expo fair 2011

overall i think people should visit it, not because of its goodies

but apart from that its about the various experience you will attain from looking around the booths

2011-11-14T22:42:00.001+08:00

Lee Kwang Soo

Yoo Jae Suk/grasshopper

Kang Gary

Suk Jin Hyung/Big nose Hyung

Song Ji Hyo/Ace Hyo

Kim Jong Kook/Spartan/commander

Haha/haroro

This is the crew of the show Running man! I've yet to see another one

But for the current few episode involving SNSD and student special!

these are the people that have been making laugh out loud till tears start rolling

I could never get tired of their commedy! The way how they make the show interesting

really sparks my creativity! I hope the show ratings will continue to increase

cause this kinda of show should continue for generations!

Today is final paper for science and O levels! I'm very proud to be typing this right now

cause i have officially graduated from secondary life and will be leading a world of the adulthood

To be honest, I don't feel a slight prepared for it, but no matter what time will go forward!

I may take a longer time to grow, but the experiences i undergo will definitely be more than those who is faster. I hope that i made all wishes granted, of cause not the impossible. All my wishes is just to see the smile on those faces that i have cared so much about. I wish they would face so much problem in life and be able to struggle a smile out in their life.

I'm now preparing a birthday present for this girl (blushing)

haha can you believe it i spend from June till now and have yet to get her gift?!

But i'm going to get it tomorrow!

I know that i cannot forever be by her side if fate prevents me from doing so.

But i know with every good deed i'll slowly be able to gain the trust from her

I swear that i would not let her shed tears for sadness but for happiness

and i would stick to my swear!

I hope she gets this message, even so, i'll still watch over her like an angle that is send from God to look after us.

If you ask me whether fate is turning against me? mmm.. No not at all. Cause i know God is always giving me opportunities and that is what i'll always appreciate!

an example, a close friend that i don't meet oftenly suddenly decides to help me to find the present for the girl i love.

Now tell me who if fate is turning against me, why would be help sent to be at my crucial moment?

Therefore i must not weaver and lose hope in the things i do.

For there is always chances given to change things :)

I hope all of your will do the same for your individual dreams

I'll chase for the girl of my dream. Will you do the same?

2011-11-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

Babes i just wanna say! I left two more paper!!!

It's so freakin' going to end!

And it's going to be gaming all day! Okay i'm just kidding gaming?? It's going to ruin my golden butt.

So i must faster get a DSLR and go into the world of creativeness and art :P

Now i'm planning on designing my clan NEST logo!

Once it get approval i such continue on the advertising of it, one day we might even represent Singapore

Okay i'm just kidding! But it's still possible nevertheless.

Knowing that your not the best is not the end.

It's just the signal for you to find a new trait the one that suits you the best.

In a group you might feel like the last, but once you find a potential in something, put the most effort in it.

Cause it's the only thing, that you are capable of.

I WANT A DSLR!!! A PROJECTER!!! A DOG!!! AND! I WANT YOU! <3

2011-11-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Heyo, i know i should've done my 'O' levels finish first before posting

but i just got one crucial thing that happen to me

I've a close friend.. Erm see it's even so hard for me to type about this.

Okay anyway how do you guys react when you get jealous about a girl

who you don't really aim for, but somehow she just feel right ?

Right now i sound like a two timer :X

Probably i should just get over it, continue to go with the normal flow~

I don't know i'm confused right now...

I don't even know how to face her?I mean...its meant to be just normal.

Take my mind of it!!

Tomorrow i got social studies and that's the important thing that i should focus!

Oh crap i forgot about D&T that makes two things i've to focus really hard on.

Fight-ti!!!

2011-10-31T13:59:00.000+08:00

Hey Yo! Its 31 October already?!

So fast since i started my 'O' levels, now i'm currently still studying for tomorrows Combine science

It seems the rain is deepening my mood( feeling sleepy)

Thank god i decided to post something on my blog before i fall asleep!

Anyway i still got a few more papers to go, this week is so called the most paper week

cause it has science, humanities, D&T all in one week!

That's not the end, afterwards i have got to work on my Chinese!

whispers : i've been playing monster hunter portable 3 too! 3/4 of my time!

Oops hope no one would see this!

Well best wishes for me and friends for tomorrow's paper!

Hope that it would be the easy paper or for those who wants to depend on moderation

hope that it would be a hard paper for you!

Good luck all! :)

I haven't been going out lately as well! So i'm starting to get dusty need to go out there

and absorb some vitamin D from the lovely sun(which is now covered by the dark clouds of fury!)

Especially going out for basketball when is the last time that i went hmmm...

i don't even remember oh dear i bet i'll be back to square one when i return to the court!

Oh! I'll be uploading a video soon, hope it would not be muted due to copyrights! :O

2011-10-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

Hi, now there is only probably 1 day 2 weeks to 'O' levels. Not long or should i say really short.

Recently i'm feeling very lethargic,cause been drilling my brain juice!

I heard that most of the 4NAs have finished their 'N' levels , good for them, lets hope their results rule!

Then it'll be our turn next! awesome...Not.

I've been observing and studying people's life.I can't seem to yet find the answer that i've been expecting

Have i done anything that normal humans won't do so?

What have i not done?

it's what you call weird...

Well i really don't understand where have i gone wrong.

If there's something wrong why don't you say so, right?

Haa, who gives a shit. A man for his own.

Now studies! Words and numbers! Rain on me. Shine on me. Just don't leave me.

Ryan first you take a book

Second you open it

Third you read it

Fourth you write down notes

Fifth you memorize everything

Lastly you test yourself.

one final message for the fats in my Booo deh!Leave or be eradicated. Peace out.

2011-09-24T10:48:00.000+08:00

Hi viewers i'm going to return to updating my more about what i do daily and also probably some game misc.

now i left about 3 weeks more to my 'O' levels! This few weeks will be the most crucial moment for me as i've to put in lots of dedication and commitment in my studies. Hoping all this effort will produce a great result.

The night study started at Monday from 4:10pm to 7:30pm , it's really the time when i'm able to put in double the effort. Just like the old times during my 'N' level.I was able to go around teaching people on certain questions and it also helps me in remember things :)

2011-08-30T11:06:00.002+08:00

Yes I haven't quit mapling :)

Tomorrow is the dateline of my design & technology journal submission! And i'm still mapling :P

But of cause i'll get to work after blogging!

what an awesome sunny Tuesday today, a great feel to get started on revision.

Still have loads of homework yet to get done!

Well! Off to go finish off my work, or else it'll just keep on stacking

2011-08-21T13:51:00.002+08:00

This is me and my sister :)
On friday we all went to view the kites that was flown around my estate.
It was magical to watch it as it glides through the sky , blinking with LEDs

To me, this was the kind of enjoyment that is enough to make my day perfect
I'm growing up day by day, things will start changing eventually.
Which is why i must cherish every single drop of memory my present have to offer :)

Have i ever told you, when i saw you. You made me feel like my life is complete.
I hope you do understand what i mean.

2011-08-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Yeah guess what it's my Nations birthday!! Happy birthday Singapore!

To all my peeps out there, i'm glad i was born in such a little island in south east asia! Why? Cause it brings me all the great memories that i had, the changes that was foreseen. Till now it's still developing! :)

Singapore you've my blessing to grow into a greater nation! YEAH! IN A HEARTBEAT!

2011-07-12T23:43:00.002+08:00

Yes it is upsetting we aren't able to change the system cause it's always pass on to those so called "wise" people to decide.

Even though we must not give up the thought that things are changeable!There is never a space that will be limited, keep expanding it! :)

To tell you guys the truth, last week it was a mixed emotion week, good news is that I've been out of it already and ready to take on more new challenges okay?

Most people say forgetting the past and venture forward , erm i'm starting to consider that past is actually better than my present state right now. Cause when your older , people start treating you as a person which is reliable. Not that it's a bad thing but sometimes it's just pressurizing when you don't have the freedom to make that choice.In the past i was actually a nicer & kinder person. Okay no regrets
just got to make that change right now.

Today i just found out , I'm suppose to go to school at Saturday! Guess what's my first expression "Jaws drop" Okay this seriously sucks! No choice though,cause my result sucks too! So yeah going back to school on Saturday , thank god it's just 3 times but if i count it, it's already august by than. THAT'S WHEN PRELIM 2 STARTS. Got to start working harder than NOW!

I just read a piece of paper, there was this story of this guy and his wife . Both of them are not on good terms. The guy actually takes the initiative and perform small acts of kindness hoping to get the attention of the wife one day.At first nothing happened but sooner or later the result started to become clear. The husband represents the farmer who plants seed and wait patiently for it to grow! Therefore this gives me an inspiration. Yes it may not have any result with the things I'm doing for her right now, but if i carry on watering, very soon i will get to harvest my prize! :)

If your afraid of me,i'll come near to you and whisper the three words to warm your heart~

2011-07-05T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! Its the month of July! 3months more to O's level and only 3 days more to my O's Chinese Oral my god, i'm shaken in fear!

I've trained myself since yesterday to do really well in the coming oral , hopefully my effort does paid off! :)

Still owned loads of homework that i just feel like its a meddlesome to just do them(can i just burn the assignments?)

2011-06-17T21:27:00.001+08:00

I hope you remember this day.

Cause i wouldn't care anymore.

2011-06-16T18:22:00.002+08:00

Are games really the things i should enjoy? Cause i'm getting pissed by it day by day.Its not the fun i had in the past. It's just more like a rush than relaxing thing.

Should i quit gaming as a form of my new birth?

day by day i wonder. Should i or should i not. There are friends that still needs me in that sector...And just leaving like that not really worth it.

2011-06-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

I'll not lose in a simple game of life no more! Legends stick their feet on the ground and Do What Is Made To do! We live by our names! To serve with nothing but dedication and pride!

If I got the right steps and route, there shouldn't be any reason to mess up!

Always believe in what you do! Never doubt your answers!

For those who bears the name of Legends! You are dependent on! Don't fret for you can't be defeated! Or else shall fall!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-06-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm glad to finally type something happy on my 200th post!!

Yes AHOY MATEY! The tide has turned my friends! It's time to gain back what i've lost! My pride , My strength , My faith! It all shall return during this one month of so called 'holiday' month! :X

Once i'm back in school , its time to scavenge the books / papers and read up on my 'O' levels! I ain't not failing, No more wasting my time!

Bless me lord! Show me the true path i shall be lead to! I'll listen and go whichever you tell me so! fufufu~

2011-05-31T23:31:00.001+08:00

Okay finally the tide have turned, it's time to make a comeback! :)

For now i'll leave it to tomorrow! And update on my latest successes!

2011-05-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

It was never fair. It was never perfect. I'll never be able to counter back the criticism people force on me.If we see this in a War scenario, i'm losing day by day reaching the breaking point,where i'll be completely defeated.

Till now i've been holding back my anger,cause i know violence will solve nothing.
One of the day i nearly exploded in Mother tongue class, when my side partner spam my phone with messages, out of a sudden i don't know why i had this urge to rip him.It was a unbelievable experience,i tried to stop him but he blocked me a couple of times,soon i burst out grabbing his biceps tightly and holding his arm back,but i do not understand why i had stopped and back down to just chilling my anger alone and continuing receiving the spam messages.

Those who had resorted in violence or do not understand a certain meaning would call this a weak solution, to tolerate and endure.You know what i say? God tells me to forgive my enemies regardless of what they might do to us.I done that,i backed down, after awhile i realize the spam had finally stopped, everything went back as normal, friend friend with no sign of anger in the past.So now you tell me, if i had punch him, what would the route be like? (i don't know, get scolding? Expelled?)

That is why i don't like the criticism about my religion, it makes no sense? What's so interesting about making fun of people? Do you care what they feel? You know what their reply is "I don't care" this 3 words! Is powerful enough to snap the limit one man can hold his anger.We feel like our efforts are all meaningless,why in the first place we made friends with this kind of people who forever will not realize that they are actually hurting the other party.

Another thing i would like to express is why people are questioning one of going to see the doctor just because they call it a "minor" injury? I mean why? I'm not affecting you in anyway? If your so concern about the MC i got, break your arm and get yourself a MC if its so attractive? A person have his/her individual rights to aid his/herself in any case of a injury whether small or big. NOBODY! should question what they do in the first place.If you are going to rub salt on me instead of showing some concern , i tell you this "mind your own business?" Do you think i like it at all? No try having a bend arm from day to night, it sucks TO THE CORE. I just hope people will think twice in what they comment, you should know that there's a limit there, and it'll not change in one second(Impossible)

This few days it's been nothing but a losing battle. When will it be that i'll finally get to post something exciting and extraordinary about my life? I hope i'll make a come back with my losses. I'll make the rise one day! A revolution in my life, to change whatever is happening now.

It's time to train myself and rid all this bad things from my life. Cause i do not need any negativity in my life, it proves meaningless. I'll show it through patiences and not anger!

Ignore those who are not important! Focus on what i really need.Encouragement is the key factor to recovery from this state! I need to find that.Once again i hope i'll be able to make a come back!

2011-05-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

Whether it's true or not. I want to find out myself,then i'm satisfy.

Now the time is 9pm. It really is spinning faster than usual,tsk. There isn't much time left for me,i must hurry up and catch it before waiting for another 3 years.

Alot of mentors have instructed me on what games have an effect on me,but doesn't mean it's all negative effect ^^ .I'll find out my true ability before the due date... Yes without doubt i'll reach it.

Hmph it is true what people say, that i'm just lying.My heart and soul is deteriorating at a rate that i can't stop it no more. Very soon,despair is on it's way to make a home. That's why i'm starting to change in many ways too much that i can't comprehend.The uncontrollable anger,the jealousy of one individual, the overwhelming laziness of one personality all this is starting to take part in my life.

What can i do or what should i do? This is not something,a regular person will understand not one that leads a normal life.but one that is a equal to me,anyway it is not help that i need right now but the Aim that I've always wanted or should i say NEED.Countless of times I've reminded myself should i really consider keeping a low profile and change my perception of things.A regular life is not enough to fill my hole up.You may call it greediness that I'm currently suffering from,but have you ever wondered about the things around you.

If you've , you'll realize that life for the some of us ain't fair at all.We get criticize like animals.It's always negativity that surrounds us which is turning us into half-demons. I'll not surrender myself to such End. Destiny can be changed,I'll prove it that my theory is not just base on assumptions.

If you haven't. Start waking up before you realize your life is on the end of the line.Start noticing what's happening,i'm not telling you to seek revenge on the individual doing all this. Instead I'm telling you break your habit of accepting every faults.In the end your making your life un-fair by not making a strong stand right now.

2011-04-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

Firstly i would like to say Oh My God! Two days later is my prelim!

And Secondly, i would like to say Magical Modoka ending phrase! " Don't forget.Always somewhere.Someone is fighting for you.As long as you remember her.You are not alone" epic!

Okay now I guess i would go to sleep :D!

2011-04-07T22:14:00.003+08:00

Its 3 more days till i graduate to a new age! In terms of the ancients thats a NEW Era for me!

Yes Changes will be made!I'll continue updating myself (like computer =X)

To start off with! SHED OFF MY BLUBBER! Lol! 20kg to go off! :p sounds impossible i know, i myself thought so too,But i've always tell people "You've never tried, how would you know the outcome?" So I've to abide by my sentence and send myself to HELL camp! kidding, not too siao :D

2011-03-31T22:57:00.002+08:00

Hey! Fuu~ didn't miss the Month of March right at the last day!

Okay i just want to say this "Don't Fuck with life cause its going to fuck you back"
Anyway i've been spending more time on my Xbox-K then schoolwork.Wonder will i be able to make it in catching up my studies, Haha

1 more hour to the month of April and 8 days more to my birthday. Turning 17. Nothing special but guess i'm older and 1 more year to 18.I wonder if i'm getting any surprise for my birthday, something that will blow my mind off.Too bad i don't get to plan my own birthday.Well thod i need to plan my sister one which is 1 day before me.Going to present her with a cake and a little card to show my appreciation for sticking my side as a family.

2011-02-13T22:47:00.002+08:00

It's one hour more to valentine and i haven't got a date!! Not that i'll in another one hour Haha!

Yes, the singles will all be having another lonely year! Doing the usual things on a special day! Life like this! So just get use to it.

We say that we are the lonely ones!The ones dejected by society,left aside or whatever you can use to describe loneliness! Feeling despair by the sight of others having a much better fate then all of us,makes us feel that we are cursed and ignored!

The truth is we ourselves never find out what we are missing.What have we not done that others have done. Why do we differ from them, which let's them have such prosperous future instead of a dull lifeless future.We humans tend to always look for answer first before even finding the answer for our own self. Therefore answer we look for are e.g friends,families,ETC.

But everyone of us have a different soul from one another. There is no way the answers are the same.It might have a few matches,but overall it still different.We have to uncover it on our own,without trying,we will never know the answer to our independent questions!

2011-02-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

My curiosity demands satisfying results!There is no way knowledge will come to a end.
It's endless.From people we can already learn that no matter how much you study a person.You can never fully understand his or her motives,what you do know is only a shell of the true motive.

A never ending exploration of the world,brings more shocking discovery! Who knows? Maybe there is a exact copy of "Earth" somewhere in the luminous space.If science have reached an advance technology to manufactured a time machine.We can change the world,remove the suffering! Will it be good? Normally messing up the time space would create a different storyline in the future.It could make the poor rich! and the rich poor.Does it really change much? Not that i have encounter such phenomenon,but if i could return back in time.It would be the day i first wave my hands towards her.

I believe it is possible human will be able to bring forth technology into a newer generation! The one that breaks over the limits of physics.

But for now.There is only one chance in creating your destiny.The choices are laid out for you to choose. A wrong step could mean a devastating result of the coming future!

2011-02-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

Today i invited some friends to my house to enjoy a game of blackjack etc.
Thou i didn't join in the game ( the room was too smelly X_X )
And finally someone viewed my blog,feeling enlightened i viewed and explain the posts that were interesting.

I hate to admit it. It is a definite reminiscing of the past,whereby i always tag at this person's blog chat box.I wouldn't say it's a tortuous memory,as i had found someone who continued to stay by my side,thou we are miles apart.Remembering all that made me regret why i didn't choose the right choices.All i wanted was to desperately achieve what i thought would be possible,but it's a grave mistake that till now i still suffer the effects of it.

last night, i had a unfinished dream. It was my faded vision or should i say impossible vision. There i was seated right beside her,we started with a uncomfortable conversation.Soon we chatted like we were truly friends.The moment i woke up , it was already confirming that it was her in the dream.What's my mind telling me to do right now?

I was struck by a statement made by someone. "Dreams always tend to be the opposite of reality." Shit. If it's true,what am i going to do? Everything i dream will it be totally opposite? That the moment i graduate from the school, she will be gone from my life forever?Even if i can withstand it,how long will i last.It's already an opposite without this vision.I tried my best to reach out,but isn't it useless?It won't be held by her.

How i wish i'll just get to wave to her again,to receive a radiant smile from her.Wishful thinking huh? True i can't deny the fact,through the situation i'm facing.

Can't shed a single tear.Whats holding me back?! Let me go now.Let me be free to change destiny!I'm not giving up till now,no matter how stubborn i may be.I believe your the one,love you too much.Please hear me out.....

2011-01-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

Ah! The beautiful sound of the rainfall.
I wonder if anywhere is flooding now,however i enjoy the sound.
people call rain sorrowful and gloomy. I say its like a blessing.

When i wake up to hear rainfall,my heart is just feel with content.Like i'm free from all troubles of the world.

Most people say rain is God's tears shedding onto the earth's soil.
If so,i agree.There is so much happening in this world that i wish to shed a tear,But i can't.

I stand by faith.Thou shall not fall nor cry.
No matter how saddening the world may be to me,its nothing at all.Thats how i interpret my feelings.

I should not fear the darkness that covers our light in us.The light i hold is something i'll not lose easily for others to consume it into darkness.As long my faith stays strong,Nothing can bring me down.N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

2011-01-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

was scanning through Stomp posts.

And the Love stories really inspired me.

Your should really go take a long, some of this can be called real life cases for you guys.

Hopefully i get to post a love story of myself too =X

I'm just too obessed with romance. :X

2011-01-14T17:44:00.001+08:00

And i still bothered to protect you. Waste of my time -_-"
When you really need me then call me.

2011-01-10T22:11:00.003+08:00

I'm such a scary cat.

So weak to do anything wonderful.

Love is never a path for me to start anything.

People tend to not tell truth and ignore instead.

This is why i'm what i'm today. A man of self-satisfaction. It is never enough.

2011-01-09T13:29:00.002+08:00

Facebook is coming to an end soon.
A major Social networking system is going to close.

Will people start to interact through talking to each other face to face once again?
Or will they find another social networking.

2010-12-30T15:42:00.003+08:00

There are lots of time, i would like to say "friendship is awesome"
We put our hands on top of each other and say "we move along together and not as one"
avenging for one another,protecting one another that is the warmth of friendship

This is why, we must now care for another! :)

2010-12-18T00:34:00.002+08:00

Got 13 points for my 'N' Level yeah!
tsk means going back to secondary 5 next year.
I wonder if i can manage next year,i mean the difference is alot.I hear many toturous things our seniors went through,will we suffer the same fate?

Whether we make our secondary school life a horror or perfect memory is up to our choice.I've decided to leave a wonderful memory in my last year,thus i'll do it to the extreme.To be truthful, i haven't been putting in effort in both academically and socially.

I hope next year when i step into this school, its means a perfect day have just begun for me.My goal for next year is to acomplish everything and also to find a new talent i've in me waiting to unleash its potential.

2010-11-16T21:48:00.001+08:00

:X Ahhhhh!!! I just so <3 my hamster!

It grabs my hands and bite it! JKJK! LOL

2010-11-03T21:37:00.001+08:00

Hmm! What am i afraid of man?
Bom Bom Bom my heartbeat bounce!
I can't stop thinking!
I'm going crazed baby! Hell Yeah!

2010-10-30T23:04:00.003+08:00

2010-10-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

Now's not the time. Soon, i'll be back.
Those who've thought of me being a loser, i'll be back.
I've rested enough.Now i'll make you suffer.
You've finish your chance.Too bad i'm still alive.
Now's my time to finish you off.

Now i take my own pride. To complete my task. It shall be done.

2010-10-25T00:43:00.002+08:00

yo!This is my beloved chinese class!

Hopefully next year we will still be together with the same faces!
And of cause hopefully our teacher Mr Lin Jun Kai will be the same!
Cause his the best chinese teacher!
Unique you know? :D
His not like some other who just blabber their chinese words
to lecture the student.
Different i'll say
Well post it here, so that this memories will not be forgotten.
Definitely i'll not :D

2010-10-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

Can destiny be changed? I want to. No. I need to.

Everytime i ask myself, am i getting close to achieving my target. No.I was indeed far.

Is being Myself really such a effective formula.No.I don't see it in effect.

Why Don't i wait till i've the chance to do something to impress her.No.There's never a chance if you don't create one.

Contiune staring at the photo.Dang it.How i wish i could just be in it!

2010-10-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

Its time to pull out. Failure was expected.
Since its not the first time,i've been immune to it.

I'm glad that you cared for me, knowing that i may be demoralise.
That's why you didn't want to tell me and you told everyone to keep it a secret.
It's alright friend :) I don't blame you at all.
You've the rights to chase the same goal as I
It seems you'll travel more far then i'll go.
I may be hurting myself more, but i'm not, for me i think its better to accept it.
Cry if i must, besides its normal for human to teared if they sense something sad.
How i hope you'll just treat me normally? I don't want to be your rival but your friend.

It is just not my victory.I wonder when will it be?
Sometimes i'll ask myself,why am i even born in this world if i can't succeed in anything.
Probably i drowning myself in sorrow, cause i meeting a mishap.
Am i really fortunate or not. I wondered.

Argh, my mind is screwing with me. Why? Are you telling me that your wasting my time.
If i'm evil i would say yes.I'm wasting my time on you, you don't deserve it? Same goes to me i guess. I've done my way of holding you in my heart,i always thought this is as much as i can do.
And it is,guess i'll take a break once again. Screw it man.

-off to bed, the next day.....what a waste.

2010-10-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

Yawn so much thing to do after 'N' level , 90% games haha!
I feel so tired today - -Zzz

Come'on babe give me encouragement, i need it the most. Rdm.

Argh around a few more days and E-Sq camp is going to start! Can see all the similar faces!

No lovely lovely for me. Ryan got job to do , no money job! (I'm broke @#%$#%&$^)

Nevermind, *wears mask* lets rob! Joking.

If theres anything i want to do right now, is sit down have a cup of icy cold lemon tea,Looking out at a beautiful windy sky!

2010-10-04T18:16:00.001+08:00

Nice or not? Long time ago de picture.
Bored. Left Maths and design & technology,then no more le? Happy right? haha

No appreciation ? Confirm one, everytime do something, bo receive thanks one.

Well go study for Maths le, Owned your ar!

2010-09-25T01:56:00.002+08:00

I wonder when's the time i get to experience it.
I'm always cautious , paranoid i may be.
Atleast I feel safe.
2am and i'm typing this :) Crazy me haha.

I must face the truth,yes its not possible.It never was in the first place.
Stop wasting time :)
Despite being hurt over time and again.He contiunes.Just like dear old me haha!
While different people have different fate.He'll get what he wants if he persist on.
For me hah. I must learn to give it up.There are some things,we can't win.

I shall put my effort in finding new objective.
:) I don't like giving up.But i must also learn not all things are possible.

2010-09-07T16:51:00.002+08:00

Two N level paper down! Chinese and Social studies. Next is english!
ENGLISH!! Most Important.

Argh i think i'm being arranged to do something.
Maybe i'm thinking too much, who cares anyway?
I just be myself. Just be myself......

ENGLISH?!

2010-09-05T17:30:00.002+08:00

4am++ i cycle back to my house, in the heavy rain.
Whether i was crazy or sad at what i just heard, i don't know how to explain.
I actually made someone 'hate' me for real and yet idk.
But now i know.Tsk it just pull me down.(bad timing when i'm near Ns)
How i wish i can now sincerely apologize for the mistake i did, thou it was a long time.
I still can't forgive myself now that i remember.
I'm sorry (......)

Anyway, saying sorry here doesn't make a difference now does it?
You only visited my blog once, and i guess it was the last ever one.
It sucks when you find out something...It just sucks.

Despite all this, i'll still listen to my sis, to not let this affect my N level.
Even its a regretful decision.I don't care anymore.Do it or quit it.

2010-08-31T21:13:00.002+08:00

1 Week to 'N' Level :D
i ask my graduated seniors for advice, he says put your interest in studying.
Oh nono, i'm doomed! I've to smash the monitor screen if i'm to put my interest in studying haha.
I shouldn't think i'm still okay , i should think that i'm the most lousiest. In that way i can do something to overlimit my worst.

Well all i hope is that i get the grades i want.Okay just lying thats not the only hope.
I should be truthful to myself, I want to be the best :D! Yeah thats what i want to be.
Regardless of whoever! I must perserve on! On what i want. Thats it.

Ah! My com crash just now, luckily everything is draft-ed and save.
aw. I really want people to see what i'm getting to experience.
I just hope he/she will just accept the way i'm - -

2010-08-29T14:37:00.002+08:00

PAINTING? OR PHOTO?

This is the view i want you to see :)
Emphasis~! YOU

2010-08-17T20:07:00.003+08:00

Don't neglect the weak.
Everybody have a ability,its whether you are willing to find it.
Don't give up,finish it!
Stand up and FIGHT!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!!

2010-08-14T22:41:00.002+08:00

Maybe i'm crazy.
I'm seeing images of my dreams, its not good.
Its like all my parrallel world is suffering an Undesirable fate.
Its like a nightmare.

That day i went lower selatar with my friends. What a wonderful view
They said they wanted to bring their flowers there,at that time i thought to myself
"right? What flower do i really want to pick"
there are many.Only one will fit in the pocket nearest to my heart.
Who should it be?
I really want to find answers,guess i'll go there on my own one day.

2010-08-10T23:16:00.002+08:00

Now i'm hurrying to complete my dnt journal before the handing up tomorrow.
The dateline is on 14 aug. Sure is short.
But nevermind after this night I'm going to be free from designing till next year weepii!

I found out something :)
I've been too desperate for certain things,its Time,i take it slowly.
Being too rash will just end up dead Kidding :)

Well thats all and Happy belated singapore LOL!

2010-07-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

Its Good, to encourage your friends to their best, when they are on the urge of giving up! I believe there is no such thing of who is better then who, no matter what there is always a certain weakness we can find and excuting it!

Heh heh, school's life just got more interesting in our class! but it has also got more ...needless to say, just pretend nothing has happen! Shall just do what we've done last time! Placing our bets on the old times!

by the way, a cute little kitty cat licked my leg, he certainly relieve my tiredness.Even animals are good partners in life,do take notice of them,u will regret if you have not done so :)

2010-07-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

Its crap , that we have to summit to fate. Why?! i hate the culture i'm living in. I see no Choice.

Anyway whats important now is i must pawned my studies! i must own the ranking! :( but my eng cmi. nvm read book~ LOL! How? i hope i got a guardian that can inform me what to do now. This sucks! I want to go Japan *sobs* :(

2010-07-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

Hehehe, guess i'm losing myself. Well i should not - -,its not the type i'm. Be strong! A army can't fight without morale from a general!

I shall now calm myself down. Hmph,now i should focus on being the best :)

2010-07-09T18:08:00.002+08:00

Huh? Wth i feel so speechless today. Yesterday i volunteer to be a assistant monitor,cause i want to give myself second chance and prove that i can balance both a leadership position and studies.

I was surprise why Zh stepped down? But now i know. It isn't so carefree.
I've experience stepping down before, when Mr Tan(went to yishun junior colledge), my ex-form teacher from 3N1 asked me whether i should consider giving up as assistant monitor and concertrade on my studies.

Today.I can feel the greediness from someone and i think i've been used? He didn't even want to admit that is what he wants and not me? I just kindly ask for him and he just push all the wantings to me? I don't get it, is really getting a badge that important , why must you collect them? You want to collect i'm fine with it? Don't use me, thats what i'm disappointed. You've failed my trust,but i'll still do my job to reclaim my prove.What's important is i know what i must do. I'm sorry dude, you put me in a deadlog and now i'm going to crawl back up,have your prize i don't care , what i want to do is to complete my responsibilities.

I've no rights to say him, thus his name is not imprinted.i hope teacher's able to see this,then she will know the truth.So many corruption.

Idk posting this might cause whatever trouble that will befall upon me,But i'm going to be confident and do it, I'm not alone , thus i'm not afraid.

2010-06-27T02:57:00.001+08:00

Today the sky was freaking beautiful, i tell ya guys it felt like i'm flying to heavan?

Its so mystical its so special , man never getting another view like this, No hell the clouds would be in the same position as i've seen it today. If anyone else seen it you should know its one hella of sight don't you think so?

2010-06-24T23:00:00.003+08:00

Say how many times, my words will never ring in your head. I'm Going to say bye bye and say hello to Myself, cause you ain't deserve nothing good from me , call me bad, call me pervert. Yo I give you a space, thats good enough for you to fck yourself around yo?

i wonder how many people actually seen my blog? :(

i know one great person who openly express himself on my blog and thats my good old buddy Kelvin(iaminnocent)

if you do view my blog, please don't hide, i don't mind starting conversation.
i'm a opened bag , just throw in your trash and will have a good time!

2010-06-17T21:56:00.008+08:00

Maplestory. A game that i'll never leave, never say goodbye! Call me a addicted :D But i don't care! Its one game I've place my hopes on it!

Sometimes i laugh at new players , they just love spam(contiunous clicking of a AOE attack) but this reminds me of the time when i was about their era, which i urge my boss for spam as well haha! Thats why this are the lovable moments :D i would never forget.

Okay i might be crazy now talking about experience in a game, when it is just virtual and not reality which i should be reflecting on. However maplestory is still my one pillar of strength to contiune doing what i do best at.

I agree, maple has affected my studies, way lot :X in the end it still give me stress relieve to contiune fighting with such a lousy start at my education.

The social life is not bad :) many friends, my guildmates, boss. Everythings been alright, we depend on each other, support one and other not to quit despite of the troubles we face (hack-ed) LOL btw i played for 5 years and yet i'm still not married to a girl :X (i married my boss only) So lol no love life currently :D

Okay! thats the review for this week~ All the way GYASHAN! FEARLESS WE ARE!

2010-06-10T22:42:00.001+08:00

Wooooooooowwww!!! Karate Kid nice! + its my first movie in the cinema for this year yo! :)

Worth it man! Justin Bieber - Never say Never , as the ending song is nice~

If kung fu was this tough :) haha i really must respect it then haha!

2010-06-06T11:07:00.001+08:00

Yawn~ bored 11am got tuition later and its already 10mins.
the 1st June post on 2010

Nothing much now :)

2010-05-16T19:38:00.002+08:00

haha spongebob the movie, moments :)

ELECTROPOP *tumbs up* :)

Everything has a solution, but it depends on the person capabilities.Nothing is impossible,true.
But, it depends.

2010-05-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

2010-05-03T21:11:00.003+08:00

To bear hatred but not showing actions.Isn't it same as doing nothing at all?
So tell you what. Go study for your future, stop being distracted :D

NewLegacy.Sounds kind of catchy, thinking whether this would be the brand new guild name.Whats your opinions people?

No matter how biased someone is to somebody else but not you.No matter, in the end , its your efforts and the results you obtain that proved your capability.

2010-05-01T10:16:00.006+08:00

Vongola 10th crystal glove :)

Finally got wii! Only got wii sports to play *snore*

2010-04-17T15:06:00.004+08:00

:D updated.

2010-04-02T17:19:00.001+08:00

Low morale, but not a losing battle.

8 more days.

how it feel?

good?

bad?

hard to define.

2010-03-11T19:17:00.002+08:00

Taken on Total Defence Day

Finally i've came to my senses, its time to plug out the cable and take out the books.I realise that to be a game programmer or designer not only requires skill or interest, but 90% is base on academic , which my aim was to achieve aleast a degree . I can't let this goal be just a big talk, i've to show it through my exams and tests.

I realise my teacher's intention when he said :" Even if you win best in the game , you'll still achieve nothing but virtual points, scores and level. Which has no effect towards your future"
To make it simple means i'm wasting my time just spaming on the same keys for nothing.So for myself i've already started to do every assignments i recieved and make the best out of it.

For those who are still unclear, what your doing in Singapore. It is to make use of the best education you can recieve in the uppermost content.What's difficult now may profit you in the future.

2010-03-07T16:55:00.002+08:00

Hi. Issues in March.

I've scrifice(spelling error) to replace for something.Its impossible to balance both of it,thats what i've exprience it and i never going to do the same thing over again.Nothing is even equal or fair in this world, especially when there is favourtism,like when one personality is not in your favour you would not like it, instead you show biaseness.

same thing goes with friend. Example one party treats you with all the "i will do things for u" then u favour that person, and always depise the other party. I can now tell you how that person will feel "You have just wasted my bloody time on this world"

I must really praise god, that he have given me brothers and sisters that has supported me, despite of what i do.Cause i realise friends don't really stand by you, how to say, like when your useful they want you, when your not, they just throw you one side like a stray cat, stalking him/her.

This is why i've decided on one thing. Be myself, future is my to decide, its not on anyone or whoever, its you. If they can't accept your personality, why bother, you don't care me i don't care you, we happy happy can le.

Tehee end of passage.

2010-02-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

Friends for 3 years = nothing in the end.

Tried to cheer them up, get back a scolding in the end.
So be it, you want it to be that way beat it then.
Can't even tell me the reason, why still be friends? Its not like i'm the one pissing you?
Forget it, don't need to apologize, okok nvm i don't think you want to, anyway i'm at fault k?

Don't care loh~ my studies important. Nothing else is. My future. My own. Nobody else.

Readers of this, please don't ask me why i typ-ed till like that. But i'm going to just study study nothing else! Thank u.

2010-02-04T19:56:00.004+08:00

2010-01-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

holy Genesis! LOL Lv157

2009-12-07T23:58:00.004+08:00

So proud of my 1st bossing with Pianus XD exetremely difficult,need to react fast this and that,fuu~ this is what i call hardcore play XD

Have your all tried out the new aran job? Better start now , till 31st may Lirin's ring is gone for grabs!

Yea its gonna be the best occasion ever for me! christmas XD! Hope u all got ready ur presents to gift me XD jkjk!! Enjoy your december holiday while it last

2009-11-17T20:31:00.001+08:00

CCA CCA CCA,come home~ sleep. I wish to watch a sight of nothing,a sight of windy dust across,a sight to peace my mind.

2009-11-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

Cool tribal clothes right?Adapted from SPORE.

advance to sec4~

Yeah? barely made it.

have to read up more BOOKS BOOKS and More BOOKS!

passing english all i've to do now,simply pick up the hardest habit of me reading books!

well 3 more days of E square camp,i'ill be left alone to start on my work to 'N' levels trust me its nearer then you expect

2009-10-19T20:29:00.006+08:00

This are the pictures for the baking course,when my phone can't read the memory card

Facebook,Facebook,Facebook,L4D,L4D the simple things i do when exams are over. Is there anything else to do out there? Nevermind mid-November is shifting near!guess? Correct.

I'm finally thinking that "not giving up" is giving off good benefit,who knows? Maybe its true.I should listen to sister more often thou haha.

2009-10-15T23:57:00.007+08:00

All pictures from second day of baking course XD

Exams over but it still seems busy haha,going home late as usual.

Okay i don't know whats going to happen after baking course,but come near is our Sec3 E-square camp,basically is going home late again through attending lessons.What comes after the 2 weeks camp? Chalet!! Away from all the disturbance to relax in a house for 4 days 2 nights haha. Relax i'm not slacken on blogging,still gathering information haha!

My handphone going to die soon,so yea please try not to sms me.Cause it will be troublesome to reply.Just a call will do. Thank u.

Gratz to my Female DwarfLouhan(flowerhorn) for laying eggs!! Was surprise, hopefully its neighbour is a male,then the egg will be fertillise = More louhans!! haha

2009-10-09T15:32:00.003+08:00

Two papers more till the end of End Year Examination!

Let it be heard! Let your voice reach the skies!

Tolerate! people will see your true intentions one day.

Endure! With effort.Changing is made possible.

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Every single object moves in a cycle.Only extinction or destruction

could break the cycle.While i'm still alive,i can still take this theory

and turn the cycle backwards,things would thus seem better this way.

Turning the cycle requires lots of motivation and endurance,even so

i shall do it.Its.....for something thats been giving me a sharp pain.

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Honor-Exemplify the ultimate in ethical and moral behavior.Act

responsibly,be accountable for your actions,and fulfill your obligations.

Courage-Do the right thing,in the right way for the right reasons.Your inner

strenght helps you overcome fear.

Commitment-Apply unrelenting determination and the highest level of

discipline to achieve excellence in every endeavor.

Copyrighted from First to fight.

2009-09-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

Now i'm lagging.So no special colouring haha.
er using laptop too,so no images to update.
once again tempo not updating,WHY? EOY.

2009-09-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

"Stand up,its not over"
"That person is your dream"
"I will always watch your back"
"your not a hatred,your a friend"
"fight as one,win as one"
"Hang on with all your might"
"if your going to die,do so bravely"
"Will never break the promise"
"Its a promise of a lifetime"
"i won't lose out,I will win!"
"If you trust me,Join me"
"to be loyal all the way"

2009-09-06T22:04:00.005+08:00

Behind the merlion~

Big beak Yian Kut-Ku 14 combat multiplyer

3 random pictures again. Today Fabl-ed all the way(succeeded 3 legendary weapon)

1st exam english 30 september i think,fast. Will i make it? Darn it.

Thanks Brothers for advice & offers, time to work hard(although i'm already) For a enjoyable chalet!

Everyone join in Naruto with me!

2009-09-04T21:20:00.003+08:00

while Just junking up all the pictures,figure them out yourself.Okay sorry,i'm not in a glad or bad mood.Just finding everything troublesome,I don't understand So what if i'm a chinese,i need to study mother tongue?Its just a freaking bothersome over my other subject,study chinese study chinese,now my eng CMI! If i get a chance to pull out from chinese,i will agree 100%.Who cares? Cannot read chinese nor say it.

Another thing.Okay its best not to say it.Troublesome.But i'm decent,no comments.

"Your son get all 'U' again,never study lorh"

"Hopeless already" <

You take away my interest,how you expect me to give you the best.

"Your gang ?"

Its my friends.Gang? Wait in the first place did i do anything forbbiden?Can think or not?

"give me the number of your friend"

No trust.Fine i admit one thing i did wrong "late" So? Got affect or not? No right.

"girlfriend arh?"

Why? She is someone who encourages me? Yea can't i treat it that shes bloodrelated.

"Let the game devil take over you"<

I don't play a game just for fun,i'm studying it,cause its my interest,too bad i'm born like that.Nerd always.

2009-08-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Agent Hmml0lhealu

i'm back Miss me?

fu~i can say that August is surely a day full of things to do from sweeping the floor to going to the airport!

I can't talk much now~ Got to finish up my composition before english.

I stared at my watch,tick.. tick.. tick.. as the second hand move.If time is moving,why can't i?Whats stopping me?"its your hesitation.Believe and you will move."whispered a strange voice.I was shocked,but whoever it was,he was right.So i grab the ring and left the house.

By Ryan

2009-08-09T11:08:00.002+08:00

Happy national day 09 SINGAPORE ^^!!
Yea~1 day off on monday!
But -.- 1 week of term tests.
So this blog will be temporarily~Dead till further notice. TY

2009-07-13T19:19:00.002+08:00

Okay for Vista users your should know of this function(Switch between windows)

Haha just showcasing -.- that i'm multi-tasking now.Okay yea i'm now a lover of transformers 2 but it will soon change(likes shifting interest) haha.Er secret if you want to know whose in the conver,ps.Find out from me~

Hmm,i'm probably gonna research more about blogging LOL!~ Yeah.

2009-07-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

xForBandiTx lv110 cheif bandit

Guild: Mil0Cafe

Yo peeps! Just post the picture for show and tell,okay this bandit.Ya "now" belongs to me,although it doesn't have a good helm like my priest,i still quite appreciate the price to scroll bandits equids, example Varkit which i scrolled with 3 60% 1 10% , all 3 pass but my 10% fail ~.~ disappointed but in total about 2mill spent only LOL,the Varkit itself cost 700k when i first bought it and its scrolled already with +2 something? If 100% suay LOL!Anyway your should bring urself to train at Bye-Bye station,its not about exp , its about the equids! ( 3k~180k) the 3k which is a purse LOL! Yea i earn lots of mesos from there~

S>cape for int 70%(nego price)

Today i farm around 7mill (5mill from the 2x buffs i sold) the rest from my cheif bandit~

If you could read this tiny pic,it actually shows "You have played MapleStory for 14 hour(s).We suggest you take a break from Mapling." The truth is that i think i spend 4hrs blackshot on garena LOL.

2009-07-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

Cool huh?! First a picture of me changing into a grumpy red dragon,next is a picture of Optimus Prime in Transformer 2 :revenge of the fallen.By the way well at 9.30pm ytd entered the cinema to view the movie the 2nd time! And i can tell you,i can't get tired of the scenes!

By the way theres a new movie called "fighting" looks pretty cool , fighting for 5k? ech win u get 5k?! wow thats what i call easy earning but lots of pain.I wonder if its rated,if so hopefully i get to catch it posted on webs.

Another funny fact from myself, do you know my Plurk...i have no boy added as friends LOL? 100% girls. -.- guess like boys don't enjoy the usage of plurks or maybe i'm a g@y "NAH!" lol.

Sales~
Selling Scroll for wand magic attack(quantity:4) 60% for 2mill each pm Hmml0lhealu

2009-07-08T23:43:00.002+08:00

Yea hello! peeps~ Today is the Day of nothing "yeah!" (clap hands please) Anyway term test is just a few weeks or even days away!Wonder if i got improve my maths hmm~ hopefully yes.Argh i'm still left with some bits and pieces of my History and once thats done,i can finally revise woo~

Okay i wanted to explain my new blog motto "finishing it,then leaving it" basically it means not to procrastinate my work or anything else(although i still do)But anyway it also means that whatever you started or suggest-ed,finish it cause leaving it will cause confusion and people tend to lower their trust/respect Etc. on you.So yea hope you like it.

Okay thats the end for today's post! Enjoy schooling~ And take care of yourself

2009-07-02T17:03:00.002+08:00

Final Fantasy:Advent Children

I know this is a so called "Old" movie , but its still rock'in well to me aleast.
Theres a new edition of the movie which is recoreded in Blu-Ray Discs,Clarity is much clear by using more functions of the HD(high definition) and the movie is extended , so its like the original movie except with new scenes or changed scenes.

Final Fantasy:Crisis Core

For PSP players your would probably say,"chey play before liao larh" haha,but i would recommend Crisis Core to be a must-played RPG , it views through the story of the past before the movie Advent childer.Where you play as "Zack" a soilder operative whom got promoted to soilder 1st class during the game,while playing the game you understand basically the reasons:How?What?Where?Who?When?Which? < those are the questions which you would maybe ask when you see the movie without playing the game haha.

If i fail-ed to add one anything , whatsoever. Please do inform me ,Thank You

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Other games in my PSP:
-Kateiyoushi Hitmen Reborn Battle Arena
-Dynasty Warrior Strike Force

2009-06-30T19:39:00.005+08:00

Like my clouds collection? I got really interested when taking them.

To me i think clouds are something to let you think. Yet it feels like you can take to a greater height,making us above the rest.

YEAH WOOHHOOOO!!! Just came back from G.V after watching Transformer 2 : Revenge of the Fallen. And i can tell you! Its worth it to spend your pocket money away , just to spend 2hr 30 mins watching a movie full of explosions,firing bullets, last but not least mechainical transforming robots,smashing the battlefield.More info to be updated about this ^^

Any suggestion from anyone,whether i should start imagining my own story and post it out on blogs,well its gets fun when you start visualizing whatever,story your saying~ if so please reply Yes or No in my tag box(please be honest) ty

That should sum up today's post.I guess. =D

2009-06-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

Innocent venus : Sana

I'M NOT A LOLI FROM THIS PIC!...Ahem anyways,while i back to my own goodself already.Recovered and ready!

Tomorrow will be the Secondary 1's Long Training 7.30am - 7.30pm (not a camp cause of H1N1)
The day after 7.30am - 3.30pm

Schools are going to reopen,more assignments are going to flow in Zzz! Hopefully i don't get infected by my brother's sickness ~.~ if kenna cham liao! Will miss out alot.Most people say want extend holiday,but i want it to be normal,thou theres a risk of spread,but education still important for me aleast,if i don't do well,i'm a goner!

Oh ya Loved my Npcc outing,yesterday. Went to Sentosa,to? Of cause hit the water ! We even formed a circle in the water to play numbers:truth & Dare.I only guess the answer one time,so they ask me this question " Who you like? " ...erm so i just duck my head into the water haha,and somehow they forgotten about it and said they wanted to go back to gathering area.After that when the tide began to lower,we decided to swim across to the other island,at first i thought that it might mean death if i don't swim well,but when we reach there it was actually quite short distance away,so we swam...i was holding a squadmate hands,while my other squadmate held his hands too...to pull him(unsure how to swim) anyway we manage to make it to the other island, "OMG!" the sand is so soft and no one has even touched it,we created foot holes by running forth and back on the sand bed haha ^^ . Then we even buried one squadmate..after that he said sand got into his eyes and he was itchy all over haha.Soon we all decided to swim back,but this time,i was the only one drag the person..in my mind i was thinking "darn i'm not skilled,what happen if i somehow cramp or even sink" my heart kinda of pumping harshly. When i was paddling half way in the sea,i decide to just kick my leg and swim..without using my hands,my squadmate withness me as a man struggling LOL like i was gonna drown.i was just thinking "no matter what , Survive!" There i made it! After that we all went back Vivo to have Dinner,and i followed Ray back to Yishun,Pretty exhausted(i still got tution in 9mins time) Oh ya! I miss out one part when we were bathing,Gals came in to use the boy's shower! Everyone was saying "remember to cover your brothers!" haha. K end!

2009-06-21T00:18:00.002+08:00

Ok today not gonna be such a happy post(sorry)

k i'm just going to say i regret,i can't believe i trusted,i was hoping the person could change and forget about the item but no,the person took off without even say bye or the person left was a indication,which is useless now.

My head's swirling just because of this.Should've believe my friends.although not much was taken from me and i prevented a scam.But from such a deep ....-ing to be destroyed in a day really hurts.Now that i've exprience it,till i'm ready i'm not gonna bother anything about it.

plan to move on...but after a rest(1day)

Thanks for those who advice and supported me.

2009-06-07T11:33:00.002+08:00

Vongola first
Yo! people, let me see,Okay firstly i wanted to thanks the 1st week of study thing,cause i completed my work thanks to them "LOVE IT" , anyway I think i lost my PSP "OMG!"this month lost alot of things sia

My bicycle key(founded)
My Diamond umbrella(i left it at the school table outside of indoor sports hall)
My Big umbrella(left it at KFC,went back to find but missing)
My PSP(did i left it at school or stolen?!)

Anyway am i losing memory!!

2009-05-20T21:10:00.004+08:00

7th captain Komamura's bankai:Enlightened King Kokujou's Heavenly Punishment

Wahaha massive bankai!Although movements are rather slow,but the power is FTW.Too big thou hehe.

Blackshot-garena ver.

Ohyea first person shooter~works well with skype! Showing tactics and ways to achieve the title "mission success" or "MVP" sound quality,visual all rocks! A must try for those who likes discussing strategy.Easy kill and easy death give the player a chance to know their limits and not to do things without first protecting yourself.Pm me or add me in skype (ryanexx) have fun!

okay topics for the week is Done!~

hoho! I passed humanities only?! eng still unknown? chinese er doubt i'ill make it.

Got friends peeps? Do intro,wahaha I'm bored or should i say distracted?

well got to go! Ryan signing off

2009-05-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

Operation-X=>Perfect X-Burner

Yoyos! Exam are finally over, can i get a hey yaa!(Hey YAA!!) OoYE!(OOOYyE!) wishing all the best for your results.

E.D:probably now its over,the fog is starting to clear,truely i was hoping for a much better sence then a pile of flesh and blood,lying there barely breathing.The smell of rotten crap drench the surviours with tears of sorrowful,all i could do is to spectate the undesirable view,not seen,not touch,not living either.

2009-05-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood.

WOO~ She looks so JAPANESE! AND I SHOUT WOW!

By the way i've started on Pet Society name is Floops (facebook)
ADD ME IN FACEBOOK EVERYONE!!THE MORE THE RICHER!

to all gamers,have your even realise an instinct that happens when your playing a game?Like something that tells you,that thats gonna happen,your gonna achieve that target.If you did,you must be feeling wow?! Is this what all the pro-gamers have an instinct to actually succeed that,but then when tried to force that instinct you realise you suck more then you start failing and failing till you said I HAD ENOUGH!So i'm just telling you , play games for fun not for seriousness ,who knows maybe thats the key to gaming.

Loyalty & Strength~Bracing the limits

2009-05-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

The day we made trouble is the day new things are learnt!

Sorry bloggers for the blur picture haha ^^ ,but its good to cover up the school identity LOL! U know i know can le.

Good luck for all in your Mid-year examination!

this is not the end ^^ More updates tomorrow.

2009-04-26T11:08:00.002+08:00

GOOD morning!! BIRDYS AND HOLEYS!

the adapted from full metal alchemist,well i know theres a new one called the full metal alchemist brotherhood.But i decided to see old one first ,and check out what they change or should i say remake hahahaha ^^.

"human kind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return,to obtain something of equal value must be lost,that is alchemy 1st law of equalvilent exchange,in those days we believe thats to be the only one and only truth"-ALPHOKSE ELRIC

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okay i wonder what to type now.(brb) wahha